Wonder Years they are ...

Last Friday Rick and I celebrated our 10 year anniversary  It has been a whirl wind life.  We were friends for 2 years, my mom said that is the man you'll marry.  I thought she was crazy told her no he is just a friend.  She was right we dated for 2 and then married!  We went to Miami for our honeymoon, because it was so darn cheap (YUP didn't think about hurricane season .. duh). It was a nice place to visit the one time.  We came back to find I was pregnant with our first son Cole!  We then went on the buy a bank-repo house, we got the keys on Christmas Eve.  I was 6 months pregnant and happy to have the new house!  1 month later we actually got to move in due to the work that had to be done to make it livable.  3 years and 3 months later we had baby #2 Caden!  Mom says he is my sweetheart because I wished so hard for a girl.  

We have gone through many different jobs, and our fair share of ups and many downs.  I'm happy to say I'm happy were we are and I'm happy with myself.  I'm not at my goal but I'm so darn close and it's been one heck of a journey to be happy to have pictures taken of us.  

We celebrated with a movie (Grown Ups 2), which I thought was going to be a total Rick movie but I actually enjoyed!  We then had a Restaurant.com coupon I picked up for $2 for a $25 GC at a local Italian restaurant.  It worked out perfect the boys were at the boys and girls club until 6p so we hit an early movie. Then the church next to home had a VBS 6p to 8p that allowed us to hit dinner and not have to pay a babysitter!  Talk about happy dance!

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!  

Our Date Night:

Yes he never smiles in photos.

They made me a special steak and veggie meal! Love them!

Here's some pictures of us:

He's loved me thick, to thin, to thick to thin to thick and back to thin :)

Sick and Forgot My Anniversary

Well I called it when I said I was feeling run down.  I ended up coming down with a horrible cough on Wednesday, finally forcing me to leave work early and then by Thursday AM I wasn't able to get out of bed with out the room spinning.  I spent a WHOLE day in bed, thank God the boys were in a VBS down the road that was 4 hours long so I had a quiet house.  I almost forgot about what was so special about the day!  

9 year ago yesterday Rick and I got married!  It has been 9 years of many ups and downs, like most marriages and I can't say enough about the persons we have become over these years.  I've been blessed to have a house and 2 kids that may drive me nuts some days but they are the noises in my life that keep me going.  Marriage is so different then the fair tales but I think that is what makes us who we are and I am so proud of that and our family.  To many years to come.  Happy 9th Year Anniversary (+1 day)!!

Not just a simple Tooth Ache … Happy Anniversary

Thank you so much for all the prayers and wishes about Rick.  His surgery went well yesterday they ended up removing 4 teeth while they were in there.  His simple tooth ache has turned into a nightmare .  He ended up a oral surgery that has him now on a ventilator to help him breath.  His throat is so swollen that if they took him off it he would be able to breath comfortable.  He’s been put in a medical coma to help with the pain along with a drain in his neck to help.  I went to visit him last night in the ICU and they have wonderful nurses that only have 2 patients each that they take care of.  He will be in the ICU for another day or two and then in a regular room until probably Friday.

They are going to take him out of the coma state this afternoon so I will take the boys in to see him.  They woke him up the am and they wrote that he wanted to see his boys .  I’ll keep you posted on what happens.  Thank you again for all your support and kind words I so appreciate it.

Rick sleeping peacefully.

Many blessings to you all!  And today is our 8th Anniversary, happy Anniversary sweetie, love you!

Working on me!

Monday is my anniversary, seven years we've been married. I'm coming to a point in my life that I need to reflect so bare with me today everyone!

Over the seven years we've had our ups and some very downs. As you know I'm a say it how it is kind of girl, there are no rose color glasses here. Over the years we've gone threw many growing stages. We got pregnant on our honeymoon which didn't leave much time for us to be a "married couple". Having a child was wonderful and changed my life and my focus. I put all on hold me and my relationship. At one point I started to work on me, but not my relationship. We hit a very rough time and I vowed I wouldn't let our communication get to that stage again. Things where said and done that could have broke us, but we moved threw.

Then came second baby and I let it go again. Being unhappy with myself can really put a damper on communication and feeling loving. I once again put all myself into the kids, letting myself sink into a unhappy feelings about my weight and putting a block between us again. Now I'm not taking all the blame I know it takes two for a relationship, but today is a reflection of me and seeing patterns. Along with that is my hope for growth, understanding and finding my new path.

Along the way I've learned many things relationship take work and at most times that means a lot. When communication is lost so are other things that can lead to hurt feelings and more. Not feeling great about oneself can lead to shutting others out which also is NOT good for a relationship. During these times you must listen and see signs from your partner. Cracks can form and before you know it a damn can come rushing at you. There are friend, family and others that can pick at these cracks and make them worse. Even worse there are others out that will take advantage of these cracks and play it for themselves. People are funny they are out for themselves and I've learned that not everyone is there to nurture and boost up your relationship.

Things I plan to work on from this point forward for ME no one else I've learned I've must put myself first before I can take care of anyone else. The rest the chips will fall where they will. I've given and given and accepted things I thought I never would. Self esteem is a funny thing if your not feeling it you let yourself go. I know that forgiveness is something we must do, and I'm working on that also.

• I will take care of myself and become healthy and comfortable with myself
• Listening, that means getting off the computer
• Knowing that I am beautiful and worthy of love
• My kids are taken care of and I can share this load
• Taking time for Adult Time Away is a MUST

I can't see the future all I know is that I'm going to give my all to self improvement and know that it is in God's hands. Whatever comes at me I can take but it whatever is to come I will take and I will know that I've done my best.

Cole drew a picture today and told me Mom this is you Strong!

Boy kids are smart!

yes that is suppose to holding up the weights :)

Thanks for listening, I find it's better for me to write and get it out so I can make changes I need to do!

Our Whacky times, Need more of those :)