The Day I wanted to SCREAM ....

As most of you know I've been on a weight loss journey last year I lost 105 lbs.  Since then I have gone from a no carb and no sugar diet to a lower calorie diet I've gained weight.  It's been so tough, I even tried to go back to my previous diet with no luck.  I've been struggling and trying very hard to keep to it and not let it get me down.  

I had to share something that happened to me yesterday.  I'm a stress eater and I was very happy with myself yesterday how I handled a situation.

I went to the doc in a box yesterday to get my birth control shot.  It's been 3 months since I've been in so the weight gain has been there.  I weighed in and it was more then 8 lbs since I was last in.  I heard the nurse actually walk out of the room and told the girls at the front desk.  WHO then proceeded to talk about my weight gain.  YUP they were like oh my that is  a lot, and on and on!  They talked about it for about 5 minutes, it felt like a lifetime of my biggest enemy self doubt!

I was hurt I was mad, these ladies don't know me they don't know the journey I've been down.  They don't known that I lost a 100+ lbs and now fighting my way to get back on track.  It was a lesson to me out not judging you never know the other person's journey.

NOW usually I would go home and eat, but I immediately kept to my plan to go the gym.  Even though it was packed and I didn't want to stay I did.  I did my hour on the elliptical and then went home to a weight watcher meal.

I wanted to share with my friends who are on the same journey, don't let people bring you down with their ignorant comments or looks.  They don't know what we have been through.

NOT me but how I felt yesterday ... lol

Thank you Google Search for the Photo

 

Doctor Time!

So I went to the doctor yesterday morning!  Still trying to get my thyroid back on track.  Lesson learned NEVER let your thyroid meds go out and not take them.  Due to a lack of insurance and lack of no knowledge about clinics you can go to and pay a $50 fee I let it go.  Well 4 months ago I got it back on track, well trying to!  I'm now on my 3rd dose revision, hoping we will get it soon!

Well the gal that I've seen last time was gone so yesterday I had the pleasure of meeting a new doc who spent the whole time looking at his computer instead of talking to me.  The one time he did look at me he gave me the dreaded look up and down and gave me the and you may want to think about loosing some weight.  After I bite back a moment I said politely I have been I'm down 30.2 lbs since the last time I was in (later when I looked at my chart according to their scale I'm down 34lbs).  All I got well ok then from the little man!  He then told me he wants to do more blood work in 2 months to check my thyroid.  Of course he then turns to me to say he of course wants to check my cholesterol and if I have diabetes.  Yes I'm a fluffy girl and immediately his mind goes to I am lazy and not taking care of myself.  I nicely informed him go ahead I have had it done on a regular basis and it's always come out fine but I don't mind :).

Oh yes it was a great visit, I can't wait for Rick to get a full time job so we can have insurance back and I can go back to my doctor.  After that visit I felt like my biggest critic and him got together and said no matter how much she has been doing don't give her credit and beat her down a bit! UGH

Ok off that my poor me box ... LOL.  I know I'm doing well and I will keep up my 3 miles 5 times a week and doing my Wii Zumba 5 times a week when I'm not sick :(.

Prepared? Who needs to be prepared?

So guess what Cole starts Kindergarten next Tuesday, yes less than a week away! Where the heck did the summer go? Really didn't it just begin? I'm it had to because I'm not ready for the school year to start. Yup I know Mother of the Year I'm not, have you read my blog ... that award so passed by me a LONG time ago ... LOL :).


Guess what you need to have shots and a birth certificate for your kid to start kindergarten, I know shocker! Thankfully I thought of this ... ahhhhumm ... last week and made appointments for the boys. Heck I better get both of the boys done while I'm at it, too bad they don't charge you just ONE co-pay, I mean come on we're in there anyways!!! So today was the day we had shots scheduled. Rick had a meeting so I asked my dad if he could meet me, I mean come on 2 boys, one me and shots! Yeah right it's not a pleasant thought!


We thankfully got right in and the nurse was very sweet and talked to Cole. He was having a HUGE freak out about getting shots. Cole is in the 95 percentile for his height and Caden is in the 90, Lord be with me when they get older! Overall the doctors office wasn't bad I only had to tell the boys to sit down around 50+ times. Cole only had to get one shot and Caden needed 5!!! Thankfully they said he could do 3 today and 2 in 6 months! Yup Mother of the year behind on shots, crap! While we there we had a talking to about Cole's sucking his fingers. This is something he has done since birth and I'm having a HARD time to break him of this habit. Along with this lovely habit has become warts on his 2 fingers. I know gross huh? So today he had to get them burned off, I'm hoping this experience will help him stop this habit. All in all not too bad, lot's of tears with the shots.


After that dad too us to dinner at my favorite restaurant when I was little. The Old Spaghetti Factory, we went to the Tacoma one not as fun as the Seattle one but it was still fun! We got there around 5pm so we walked in sat down and had dinner very quickly! It was great but it cracked me up how we were taken into a "banquet" style room, you know the "kids" room. Yup whenever you got a nicer restaurant when you have kids you always find yourself in a side room or in a far corner. The way you know this is the "kids" room because as you take a look around the room you don't find one person with out kids. Yup you've entered the world of being shoved aside because you have kids. With the food coming so quick we were in and out in no time and no major melt downs, sad to say my neighbor in the booth next to me was not so lucky. Thankfully we were hidden in the kids room ... LOL ;).


Oh yeah I still haven't gotten the birth certificate! HOLY crap, did I not order one when he was born? Crap ok Monday, yup the day before school starts I'll do that ... LOL!


Ok I'm a dork and having problems with my pictures, so here it goes I think I figured it out!!!! Check it out!

Bridal shower (1st Party)
Top 3 pictures and the bottom Left are my friends from High School.

 

Birthday Party (2nd Party)
Caden chillin in front of bouncy house and Cole enjoying it :)

 

My Besties for almost 20 years! I love these gals and so glad we have caught back up with each other.

 

The Bachelorette Party (3rd Party)
Getting Ready, Me with my new do and makeup and the limo ride!

Adventures in Doctors Offices

Unlike Adventures in Babysitting this was us locked in one very tiny room for an hour and no Thor and no running down buildings and back just in the nick of time before mom and dad get home. Ooops sorry just slipped into movie mode, so back on the subject doctor's exam room as so NOT fun and either are mom's when you stick her in these same room with 2 kids that are not doing well with sit down and be quite rule.

I guess I better back up and tell you how this adventure started. Thanks to outlook at 2pm I get a reminder that it is time to leave to pick the boys up for their 3pm apt that I scheduled with the new doctor, which mind you I had to wait 6 weeks for. Rescheduling was so not in the cards! So of course I was in the middle of a HUGE copy job, but the copier kept jamming and the tech finally showed up since you know I called him YESTERDAY!! So I start on fire #2 the bills, finally at 2:35pm I better leave now! I hope in the car and pick Cole up who is just waking up from nap time, perfect timing! Call Grandma Pat to have Caden ready, then call the doctors off to say I'm running 5 minutes late (ok at least I told them I was running late 5 minutes was stretching the truth). Ran into Grandma Pat grabbed Caden and told Khari I would be back for her shortly. Hit every red light from grandma's to the office, screch into the parking lot around 15 minutes late closer to 20 according to their clock. Thank the doc is running behind also, we get called back right away just to be put into a exam room minus the toys. Maybe taking the boys to my doc who I love who is a family doc wasn't my brightest idea! 1 hour later the doc makes it to our room, by this time the paper on the chair is in a huge ball, every drawer and door has been opened at least 20 times and we're crying.

Exam of course takes about 10 minutes for both boys, which always kills me if they are only with me 10 and I have 2, what takes them so long when there is only 3 rooms?? 10 minutes per room would be 30 minutes, riddle me this riddler! I've noticed doctors don't like being the bad person and step out when it's shot time. Oh geez by the time were done we're all in tears! Cole was first with 5 (that right count them 5) shots, poor little guy was in so much pain and huge alligator tears streaming down his face. Plus the last shot really stung, the nurse told us that after he was screaming (thanks). Caden only had 4 shots lucky guy, NOT he tensed up his legs and made them bleed. I was a nervous wreck by this time, now I remember why I always bring my dad with me or Rick.

We make it to the car and run to work were everyone is just leaving, thank you lord since my two little ones are cranky and not in the mood to sit down and just hang out! Guess what happens the copier jams, after the 5 time I shut it down with some choice words and head to the fax machine that doubles as a copier. The thing about that is it only does like 25 sheets at a time which is great except when you have a 300 page document that you need 5 (must be the number of the day) copies of! After about 45 minutes I think we wore out our welcome, I was getting the stink eye and it was almost time to pick up Roy before I went over there time frame. I swing by pick up Khari and then grab Roy. When I walk in to pick him up the gals told me that he had been asking non-stop where I was, oh geez dude I was like 15 minutes later then my usual time! Ugh ... so not my day! Ok I think I need to go spike my coffee and watch a little TV. Since I'm one of those crazy people that always carry a camera, thought I'd share our trip to the doctors office.

Caden checking out the cupboards for the upteenth time.

You never know something new might have appeared since the last 5 minutes (told you the number of the day).

What you mean this computer is not for me?
What I wasn't touch the BP machine?
Fine I'll just hang out here on the floor, it's clean right?

What I've been a prince the whole time?
Look check out my new teeth coming in.