Confessions of an Overeater

Most of you who have been following me for sometime know that I have been on a long journey of making myself healthier.  Last year I was down 105 lbs.  In June I went back to a "healthy" eating lifestyle.  WELL in my mind I was doing well with a few little snacks here and there.  My old habits started to rear their ugly heads along with my mindset that if you don't see it or acknowledge it, it's not true!  YUP it's worked so well for me, hence the need to loose 100lbs before.  

So I started to feel the clothing pinch and I had to go up a size in my jeans and my tops.  I kept saying oh I only gained 20 lbs when I talked to other (in my head I would say ok maybe 30).  Then I started to say oh I gained 30lbs and really thought that was the truth!  YUP then this weekend after trying on a pair of pants in the size I went up to and they wouldn't budge over my thighs and I almost went in tears to the party.  I talked with a friend there about the Omni supplements she had already lost 5lbs in her first week.

WELL I so know my body and know no matter what I do it has to be eating right with exercise.  NEVER have I been one to loose with out changing these two factors.

So I've now added on 3 days of Inanity and 3 days of ripped at the YMCA.  And I've gone back to my ideal protein diet, which is a tough diet but I plan to stick to it for 8 weeks!  I did pick up a few Omni supplements for my friend, that I'll be adding in next week.

So I finally stepped on scale on Monday and was shocked to see the amount gained was 40lbs!!  YUP it was a shocker but it was needed for me to get my head out of the clouds and actually see the #. 

Wish me luck!  I want to be close to being down those 40lbs by my Bday in June.  So I share my ups and downs, it keeps me accountable plus hopefully help others that are going through this also.

The Day I wanted to SCREAM ....

As most of you know I've been on a weight loss journey last year I lost 105 lbs.  Since then I have gone from a no carb and no sugar diet to a lower calorie diet I've gained weight.  It's been so tough, I even tried to go back to my previous diet with no luck.  I've been struggling and trying very hard to keep to it and not let it get me down.  

I had to share something that happened to me yesterday.  I'm a stress eater and I was very happy with myself yesterday how I handled a situation.

I went to the doc in a box yesterday to get my birth control shot.  It's been 3 months since I've been in so the weight gain has been there.  I weighed in and it was more then 8 lbs since I was last in.  I heard the nurse actually walk out of the room and told the girls at the front desk.  WHO then proceeded to talk about my weight gain.  YUP they were like oh my that is  a lot, and on and on!  They talked about it for about 5 minutes, it felt like a lifetime of my biggest enemy self doubt!

I was hurt I was mad, these ladies don't know me they don't know the journey I've been down.  They don't known that I lost a 100+ lbs and now fighting my way to get back on track.  It was a lesson to me out not judging you never know the other person's journey.

NOW usually I would go home and eat, but I immediately kept to my plan to go the gym.  Even though it was packed and I didn't want to stay I did.  I did my hour on the elliptical and then went home to a weight watcher meal.

I wanted to share with my friends who are on the same journey, don't let people bring you down with their ignorant comments or looks.  They don't know what we have been through.

NOT me but how I felt yesterday ... lol

Thank you Google Search for the Photo

 

Things that make you laugh ....

So I went to the doctor since I'm not loosing any weight and have gained some since I have reintroduced carbs and sugar.  Eating a normal but smaller portions, trying to stick to a Weight Watcher system.  I just have been feeling a little blah lately even with my working out, so I went to see the doctor and of course all my test comes back normal.  Ugh so I will just keep plugging forward.  Today I need a laugh it's been a rough week so I thought I would share a funny with you!!

Hope you all laugh and have a great day!

Celebrating My 37th Birthday ... This Sunday will finally be the day I get to go off diet and eat (well not crazy off but something special)

Every few years my birthday lands on Father's Day and this in my year to share.  I guess I can lol just playing the older I get doesn't really matter.  I am really excited I have been so good on this diet for 10 months or so I haven't cheated (well once in February I had a sugar cookie when I was at a plateau and a friend suggested eating something to jumpstart my system.  Besides that I have stuck to it and as you can see have been doing pretty darn good!  I'm down 104.8lbs and 9lbs for my goal weight (well the one that I first set I may go an extra 10 after that but that is another thing).

With Sunday being Father's day the restaurants are going to be crazy.  I've been dying to try Cheesecake Factory since my friend Debby at Just Breath told me about a low carb cheesecake they have.  I've resisted but I made a promise to myself that on my birthday I would have cheesecake!  And a low carb version at least doesn't make me feel too guilty.  We do have to go early since Rick's work schedule changed, so maybe I'll do their breakfast with cheesecake ... LOL. I've been promising myself cheesecake for over a year now so I don't care what time of day it is I'm having it!

PLUS my women's group ladies are going to take me out to dinner on Saturday night!  I'm so excited to go out!

On my list to try:

Thai Lettuce Wraps (minus the sauces)

If I have to have breakfast I'll do the Steak & Eggs (minus potatoes)

And for desert - Low Carb Cheesecake (mine will be minus fruit)

And for my birthday Gift Rick bought me this.

I want a bigger one but that will come hopefully in a few years.

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend, I'm very excited to celebrate my birthday this year with some great friends and the hubs.